Rule No. 4: It's good take a leap now and then...nothing ventured nothing gained

It's amazing what happens to one's psyche when a good thing happens (and unexpected).  My heart flutters and the teenage girl inside me does back flips.  She glows with excitement.  But then there's the mind that tries to subdue this happy teenager.

So I'm preparing for this long winter's nap but a co-worker suggested I reach out to this guy.  The guy whose profile popped up on Match.  The one I thought was just a profile....and while something good has happened, I must remind myself it IS, after all, still a profile.  Needless to say, it was a pleasant surprise when he responded.  And it wasn't some cheesy line.  So, this co-worker suggested that I write back.  Well, this banter goes back and forth a few times and then he agrees it would be great to catch up.  Friends....my mind tells me.  But the high school girl inside is ecstatic!

Lunch was great and so was the talk afterward at my house.  That's where we had left off in the summer when he decided he "needed to see" if there was anything to an old love interest.  He wanted to "see who I was."  I was not expecting to hear what he said in the moments there are my couch.  But I was listening to him say these things.....things I had only thought of.  Wished for.  My heart melted. Here was this guy who I really like(d) and just knew he would pop up again.  Who would have thought it would be on Match!?  Apologies for the way things ended in the summer.....how he handled it.  My heart fluttered as if it had wings.  Hearing him say he was glad I reached out to him these last weeks brought a smile to my lips.  I must say it was the best Christmas present I've received in a long time.

What I had wished for, hoped for, thought about had happened!  I saw us together and here he was, in my living room, admitting he thought about me.  Thought about my story, what I had accomplished, how amazing that was, and the fact I cooked for him.  He opened up telling me about the love interest he chose over me.  And that when she told him it wasn't what she wanted and how she just left, he was stunned, but was done.  In a playful way, I asked if there were any other old love interests in the wings.  No.

And while I would LOVE to scratch with the plans of the long winter's nap, my mind (and friends) cautiously encourage (okay, warn or suggest) me to not abandon such plans just yet.   I could actually use the time to organize my kitchen.  After all, whatever plans he made and I made were before we got together again.

In the past, I have been skeptical of God's timing.   When it comes to matters of the heart, I can be quite impatient.  I guess I've always expected my love life to happen as the fair tales.  My friends can tell me time and time again it doesn't happen that way, and yet I still wish.  

And this could all be a dream!  Only time will tell.....oh gosh I sound like my friends!!

Kiss someone for me Saturday night!

Christina
This girl is dating........and afraid! 

Rule No. 55: Sometimes a long winter's nap does one good

It's inevitable.  I've been prepping for it like a winter storm.  You know the ones Houstonians thrive on even it's just chatter among the weather enthusiasts and meteorologists.  But doing some mindless research for this blog, I realize everyone has experienced a dry spell a time or two.  I'm sure worries of a Meals on Wheels volunteer discovering a lonely body has crossed minds now and again.  And like a thunderstorm ends, so will a dry spell.  Mine may be come Spring, but I have to have faith it will end.  

I had hoped the last date for some time would have been a good one.  But I think I wrote about it last time.....can you say awkward?  And the profile of the man I dated during the summer I saw on Match was just that....a profile.  He probably wasn't that good of a catch anyway. That's what I'm telling myself.  At first the fact that he "viewed" my profile and didn't even reach out hurt a little, but I got over it.  

I'm planning my New Year's Eve and this year I will be spending it at home, organizing my kitchen, cleaning cabinets, etc.  I've gone out the last two years and to be honest it wasn't what I expected. The first year all I did was sit at a bar, drank champagne from a plastic cup, and ate cold tater tots and bacon from the illicit "expansive midnight buffet."  Last year it was a little better, but again, stood on the sidelines and watched other girls get asked by guys to dance.  What fun is that!?

Maybe a long winter's nap is what I need.  A "man-cation."  I have had little to no interest from those on Match, let alone just in my own surroundings. I go out with friends and no approaches me.  I've had a couple that "want to keep in touch and learn about me" even go as far to exchange numbers. What good is having a number if you're not going to use it or chase after it?  Dating in my 40s I've come to realize is probably a lot harder than it was in our 20s.  Tell me, are the men scared or do they just not know what they want?

Besides, the endless "me time" might do me some good.  I can do whatever I want.  Although I tried that once and the online dating world always seemed to suck me right back in.  Not this time.  I've been creating a list of things I want to do in 2017.  Surprisingly "meet a man" is not on it.  Take a cooking lesson is.  Try my skills at a pole dancing class is.  Finally make my vision of a new bedroom come to life.  As turning my spare bedroom into a dressing room....with pink and black.

Of course, as you know, once I'm settled in for this long winter's nap (and I mean long), that's when someone will drop down in front of me.  Appear in my life for a reason.  That remains to be seen.

Y'all have a great Christmas and a fantastical Happy New Year!!  I'll toot my horn in my pjs while watching Dick Clark's Rockin' Eve.  Oh, do they still have that?!

This is Christina.........and as always, I'm dating and afraid!